This morning I did something I am not proud of and truly regret. I was very busy, trying to finish what I was doing for I was short on time. Then, Ynigo kept on covering what I was reading with his feet and then later on with his hands. This was because he wanted to play with me. But I explained to him that I could not as I had to finish what I was doing. Instead of obeying however, he went back to covering what I was reading. I said please again and asked him not to but to my frustration he did not listen. I started to feel irritated and to make matters worse, he started tapping on what I was reading. It was then that I lost my cool... I snapped at him and nudged him away forcefully.
This surprised my dear little boy and he looked at me with great hurt and sadness, like he was going to cry. I had to look away and tried to calm myself first. My heart went out to my little boy who was still sitting o so stunned. I immediately prayed and asked for God's forgiveness as I was not the woman and mother that He wanted me to be. I then looked at Ynigo, lifted him up and hugged him tight. I then said I was very sorry for doing what I did and when I said that, tears immediately fell down his cheeks and he sweetly said, "okay". As soon as he said this, his tears turned into full blown crying which made me cry too. I then said, "will you forgive me?" and he immediately, in between sobs, said, "yes, mommy". We then cried a bit more and prayed together. He even said in his prayer, "Dear Jesus... thank you for (I) forgiving Mommy..." Oh, I truly pray that the Lord will help me the best Mom that I could be. I should not have snapped at Ynigo, I should have not nudged him, I should have controlled my emotions and most importantly I should have made him feel that he was MORE important to me than what I was reading...
May I learn from this experience and not do this again. I thank God for rebuking me and working in me, may he continue to provide me with 'teachable moments' to prune me. I thank God for my little boy who is always very forgiving. May he always be this way.
Hi teach... I was so touched by this post.. even if i already made a comment for this week, i cannot wait for monday to do this.. I am really glad that both of you understood each other easily.. Young kids are really forgiving.. both of you are blessed to have each other. I would like to confess something... This past few days, I am really having a bumpy road with my husband.. I am always not in a good mood.. I always shout at the boys, command them to stand in the corner and face the wall because they won't stop fighting. I really pray and cry every night because I don't know how to adjust to the situation. I hope I could also manage to calm myself easier so that I could say sorry to my kids like you do..
ReplyDeletethis post is so touched.many kinds is very forgiveness.when i read this post feel and i cry for that moment.have niece and she never say sorry to what she did, she cant understand his mother.
ReplyDeletei say that ynino is very god child he understand the situation of his mother.
t.beth always thinks to what she did to ynigo and what ynigo feel, she always ask the guide of God the feel okey and understand the situation, and she will ask the forgiveness oh her child ynigo.
HI TEACH :) I WAS TOUCH ABOUT YOUR POST :) IT IS VERY IMPORTANT THAT A PERSON HAS A LONG TEMPER/PATIENCE ESPECIALLY FOR THE KIDS, BECAUSE THEY ARE REALLY HAVING FUN ANNOYING THE ADULTS THINKING THAT IT IS FUNNY.
ReplyDeleteAS ADULTS, WE REALLY NEED TO SAY SORRY TO THEM BECAUSE OF SNAPPING THEM DUE TO LOST OF PATIENCE BUT IT IS GOOD THAT KIDS KNOWS HOW TO FORGIVE AND UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY HAVE DONE BECAUSE SOMEHOW THEY ARE ALSO WRONG. :))
AND IT IS ONLY GOD THAT WILL HELP US TO MAKE A DECISION ABOUT WHAT WE HAVE DONE :))
teacher beth....sa tingin ko po okay lang naman po yung ganung situation...kasi po may mga oras talagang nawawalan tayo ng pasensya....at nakakatuwa po kay Ynigo, hindi siya ngdamdam at naintindihan nya po kayo ng sobra...sa tingin ko yun naman ang pinakamahalagang relationship ng magulang sa mga anak at ng anak sa kanilang mga magulang...dapar marunong silang umintindi ng bawat isa....at magpatawad kung may mga mali mang nagawa.....
ReplyDeletehi teach.. tina rafol po to.. im having difficulty AGAIN posting to this blog :( anyway.. i find this post as an inspiring one.. for me, its natural losing temper and getting mad.. its just how we manage this anger and handle such situations.. i admire you teach 'coz i can see that you discipline Ynigo well.. he is very bless having you as his mother :)
ReplyDeletei agree with tina...
ReplyDeleteYnigo is very bless and lucky to have a mother/mommy like you...:)
…oh no….!!! ngayon ko lang yatang nakitang nagalit o nainis si Teacher Beth (based po sa nabasa kong article). Kasi lagi po kasi kayong masaya sa tuwing kayo’y nakikita ko^_^... hihi.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, what I had felt after I read this article was admiration for both parent and the child. I agreed that everyone can feel irritation or losing patience if you are not in a good mood or you have unfinished business that you really need to finish in a short time, and then there is one who disturbing you in what you are doing. But like on what Teacher Beth and Ynigo’s situation, as future teachers and parents we need also to understand the needs of the children, if they want to play with us, then we should give them time because it’s really important for them that we are giving them opportunities and freedom to express the ideas that they want to share with us. And in case that we lose our patience to them, don’t forget to say sorry immediately and ask forgiveness because we are the guider and we should be the role model for them while they are growing……